I’ve always been a big dreamer. I’ve dreamt about going on cruises. Becoming a famous songwriter/singer. Marrying the man of my dreams. Flying to New York for the day just to attend a Broadway show. Having a big home with a theatre room. Going on mission trips all over the world. Speaking in coliseums.
Now some of those dreams have come true. Others are yet to happen. But just recently my dreams were rocked and I feel like I cannot live life the same anymore.
As I was attending an intern meeting a couple of weeks back, Pastor Peter Haas made a statement that changed me forever. He said, “Our dreams are not for us and our enjoyment. They are ultimately for fulfilling the purposes of the kingdom of God.” This rocked me. I mean, I’ve always tried to live to give God the glory and to point others to Him. And even some of my dreams were about that. But I never thought that ALL of my dreams aren’t even really for me. They are ALL for the kingdom.
I started thinking about different things that I’m working towards in my life. Yes, they are for the kingdom! I want my life to be about connecting people to a victorious life in Jesus!
But I also realized that deep down, there are A LOT of dreams that I have that are just about me and my enjoyment. Don’t get me wrong! I believe that Jesus wants us to live lives of joy and fun and freedom and abundance! He wants us to soak in His world and praise Him by enjoying and thanking Him for all that He blesses us with! But when I decided to change my perspective about my dreams being about the kingdom instead of about me, everything changed.
That title that I was hoping to get so that my name would be more in the spotlight wasn’t necessary anymore. I didn’t need a title in the light. I just needed to serve in the shadows.
That prayer for promotion within my speaking ministry changed to praying for a promotable life.
That amazing networking connection I had wasn’t so crucial that it went somewhere – because I knew that I didn’t need that person to know me. Instead the Holy Spirit would move and connect us again God-willing.
As I learn to “let go” of my dreams for my own desires and enjoyment, I find myself feeling more freedom to dream even bigger! And I know that when I seek HIM and HIS righteousness first, (not me and my righteousness) everything else that is beyond my wildest dreams will be added according to His will and purpose.
I don’t think I will ever dream the same again.